Anxiety-Ridden Sunday

I have a lot of anxiety today. I don't really know why. Maybe because I think Sabrina doesn't want to do things with me. Maybe because I feel very much alone. Maybe because yet another doctors's office has messed up the billing of my health insurance.

I got a lovely thank you note from Joey today that Danielle had made. It was so cute. It makes me homesick for New York. Especially today when I feel all alone.

I have to call one of the parents today (at least one) to try to fit in a visit this week. I'd like to visit before court in case I am asked any questions. I should take a shower and write down my questions for the parents and call them to arrange visits.

I'm worried about paying off the bill at the Chicago School. It was folly to take classes there. For what? To prove I could? I guess that's why I did it. So now at my age I have college loans to pay off. Stupid.

I should go to CVS to get my prescriptions but I don't feel like going out. I think I'll just take a shower and read and work on my CASA case. And try not to think about Sabrina.

Last Night's Dream

Last night's dream combined a lot of situations. First, we had just administered a test to Texas children (TAKS) and there was some alarm that many of the answers came out to be "a." That was because the project directors had not randomized the key until very late in the game. Pat Fitzgerald was upset because our bosses were upset and I had to explain what had happened.

Then we (Pat and I) were traveling over the mountains to the city and stopped at the home of my father's cousin Marie to find she had died. My mother was with us. We left a pie and straightened up a bit as we knew someone would be coming back to the house. We missed the funeral which was held the day after her death. My mother was fretting about something, but I didn't want to hear it. I remember standing on a car and a basket to hang sometime up for work. I also make the remark that we were in the hamlet of Hamlet. The Kreigers lived nearby. Then I awoke.