NOT MUCH TIME TO DREAM

I woke up at 2:25 a.m. this morning and have been up ever since. I could not get back to sleep. I tried. I had taken a lot of meds and I didn't sleep during the day. I was just awake. I didn't know what else to do except to get up. I read a bit and listened to some music. I wrote an email to Cass who is having problems. I wish I could no something to help her, but I know I can't. I did offer to talk to Stephanie, but I don't know how much good it would do. Even Ernie got up early and followed me downstairs. I tried to do some Spanish but it is hard to see the pictures in the darkened room. It's been a very frustrating day so far. I hope things go well with our fudge making and cookie decorating. Of course I dread having to go to the supermarket and buying the few things I need for the fudge. I should have done it on an earlier day. I didn't realize I would be so out of it today. It was difficult enough to figure out a day when we could do this. I thought it would be a fun Christmas activity to do together, but it has turned out to be more of a pain, trying to find a time when the girls can "fit me in." Maybe I'll read a bit and go out about 8:45 a.m. to the store and go over. Maybe that will work for everybody. But if they are in a foul mood, I will take my food and go home.