We're off to the movies today. We're going to se "Something Borrowed." I can't wait to see the girls again. It's been two weeks and I miss them so. I feel so stupid for putting my blog on Facebook and even feel guilty for writing what I feel I want to write. The stupidest thing was importing my private blog into my published blog. I didn't remember what I had written and never thought anyone would go back through my blogs and comb through them for dirty things I had said. Sabrina is totally obsessed with the blogs now. Weeks ago she wouldn't even acknowledge that I wrote blogs. Suddenly she found something that she didn't like and went hunting for other "bad" things. She won't accept my apology, so I am through apologizing. I can only say I'm sorry so many times and hitting my head against the wall so many time when I know it's time to give it up. Going back to New York seems like a good idea but not right now. I would miss the girls too much. I may go back when they finish high school.
I'm glad Sabrina has found someone she loves, but he is so controlling and domineering. I should respond to his email and thank him for his concerns. Kill him with kindness, as it were. He wouldn't leave his mother in a lurch the way he is encouraging Sabrina to with my medical problems. She can't have a conversation with me without his being there and telling her what to say. That's controlling. At least I can see the girls. I would be more depressed if I couldn't see them. I hope Chris doesn't try to keep them in California, although I wouldn't be surprised if he does, especially if they tell him what Clint is like. If I were Chris, I wouldn't like it.
I just have to learn to make new friends and find people who can help me when I need them. I need to go to the masjid and classes and make friends. I wish there was more interaction at the masjid with people. Of course, I have to get there. Yesterday was so disappointing that I had a migraine and it wouldn't go away. I just have to get myself out to things and learn to live without Sabrina.
I'm glad Sabrina has found someone she loves, but he is so controlling and domineering. I should respond to his email and thank him for his concerns. Kill him with kindness, as it were. He wouldn't leave his mother in a lurch the way he is encouraging Sabrina to with my medical problems. She can't have a conversation with me without his being there and telling her what to say. That's controlling. At least I can see the girls. I would be more depressed if I couldn't see them. I hope Chris doesn't try to keep them in California, although I wouldn't be surprised if he does, especially if they tell him what Clint is like. If I were Chris, I wouldn't like it.
I just have to learn to make new friends and find people who can help me when I need them. I need to go to the masjid and classes and make friends. I wish there was more interaction at the masjid with people. Of course, I have to get there. Yesterday was so disappointing that I had a migraine and it wouldn't go away. I just have to get myself out to things and learn to live without Sabrina.
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